BORED OUT OF MY MIND

ITS THANKSGIVING BREAK... UNFORTUNATLEY. EVERYONE HAS GONE OUT OF TOWN. WHAT DID I DO TODAY? LETS SEE, I WOKE UP AROUND 11AM, WATCHED "MONTY PYTHON AND THE HOLY GRAIL" FOR THE FIRST TIME, ATE SOME RAVIOLI, FACEBOOKED, WATCHED TV, FACEBOOKED, ATE A SALAD, AND OFFERED TO HELP MY DAD WITH CHORES. NOW IM DEBATING ON WHETHER I WANT TO WATCH THE COMPLETE EXTENDED EDITION OF THE LORD OF THE RINGS TRILOGY OR CLEAN MY ROOM. I THINK I SHOULD CLEAN MY ROOM AND THROW AWAY ANYTHING I DONT NEED. THEN MAYBE I CAN REARRANGE MY ROOM; MAYBE DO A LITTLE REDECORATING. I DONT KNOW... SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOMEBODY HELP

JUST HELP ME. FIND SOME WAY TO SAVE MY SOUL.

THREE MORE DAYS

IT MAKES ME SICK IN THE PIT OF MY STOMACH. TO THE POINT WHERE I WISH I COULD THROW UP, BUT I CANT. THE MOMENTS WHEN YOUR FEEL YOUR HEART BREAK. WHEN YOU KNOW, OF COURSE, THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT. BUT AS OF NOW AND YOUR FUTURE, NOTHING IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT. I WANT TO TELL YOU HOW I FEEL, AND HOW YOU HURT ME. BUT I CANT. BECAUSE I CARE MORE ABOUT YOU HEALING THAN MYSELF. BUT THE TRUTH IS, THIS WHOLE THING IS TEARING ME APART AND BREAKING ME DOWN. IM AFRAID ITS GOING TO KEEP GOING UNTIL I HAVE NOTHING LEFT BUT MYSELF AND GOD. MAYBE THATS WHAT I SHOULD HAVE AIMED FOR ALL ALONG, BUT I BELIEVE THAT WHILE YES, ALL YOU NEED IS GOD, THAT GOD HAS GIVEN YOU TO ME FOR A REASON. IM NOT DEPENDENT ON YOU, BUT YOU STILL MEAN SO MUCH TO ME. I CAN LET YOU GO FOR YOUR WEEK, BUT WHY IS IT NOW? WHEN MY WORLD IS COLLAPSING ON TOP OF ME? WHEN WEDNESDAY APPROACHES AND IM ALL ALONE. WHY COULDNT IT WAIT FOR THREE MORE DAYS?

SHOW ME

I DONT KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE THE WAY I FEEL. ITS A MIXTURE OF ANGER, DEPRESSION, AND LONELINESS. IM SO UPSET AT THE SITUATIONS THAT IM IN. THE SITUATIONS PEOPLE HAVE PUT ME IN ARE TEARING ME APART. I FEEL LIKE IM LOSING MY BEST FRIEND. NOT JUST BECAUSE OF THE COMING WEEK BUT BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO BE DONE WITH IT. IM TIRED OF FEELING THIS WAY ALL THE TIME. I KNOW I OVER-ANALYZE ALL THE TIME. BUT DONT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT THE THINGS THEY DO? DONT THEY REALIZE THAT WHAT THEYRE DOING RIGHT NOW IS HURTING ME? ME, THE PERSON THEY CLAIM TO CARE SO MUCH ABOUT.
DONT TELL ME THAT YOU CARE. DONT TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME. DONT TELL ME THAT YOURE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. BECUASE THE TRUTH IS, YOURE PROBABLY NOT. SO INSTEAD, I URGE YOU TO SHOW ME THAT YOU CARE. SHOW ME THAT YOU LOVE ME. AND SHOW ME THAT YOURE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME.
IM NOT DEPENDING ON YOU. YOURE NOT MY CRUCH. GOD IS MY CRUCH. BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN I DONT NEED YOU. I NEED YOU TO BE THERE FOR ME. WHEN IM FREAKING OUT. WHEN IM AT MY LOWEST. AND WHEN ALL I WANNNA DO IS CRY.

TRIANGLE ENGLISH I

ITS SO SAD TO WASTE MONEY LIKE THIS. AND TIME. I WOULD RATHER BE ANYWHERE BUT HERE. TAKE ME TO SIBERIA BECAUSE ENGLISH IS SOMEHOW ABOUT DOGS AGAIN. THIS MAKES ME WANT TO MAKE A MOVIE ON HOW NOT TO TEACH. JUST BRING A CAMCORDER AND GO. BRING IN MILLIONS OF DOLLARS. MAYBE IT WOULD MAKE UP FOR THE MONEY THAT I AM WASTING HERE. WAIT, YES, THERE GOES HER PHONE, THE BARKING DOGS.
UGH ENGLISH. EVERYONE FLIRTS WITH THE IDEA OF SUICIDE AT LEAST ONE TIME IN THEIR LIFE. BUT I HAVE NEVER WANTED TO NOT ONLY COMMIT SUICIDE, BUT ALSO DO IT IN THE MOST PAINFUL WAY. SLOW AND PAINFUL.
I'VE NEVER HATED A SHAPE BEFORE. TRIANGLE. TRIANGLES WERE SENT FROM SATAN HIMSELF. I NEVER KNEW THAT AN ENTIRE ENGLISH COURSE COULD BE SUMMED UP WITH 2 TRIANGLES AND THE NUMBERS 1. 2. 3. APPARENTLY I AM BAD AT TRIANGLES BECAUSE I ONLY GOT A 78% ON THE MIDTERM. I DIDNT KNOW THAT KINDERGARDEN ART WAS A PRE-REQUISITE FOR THIS CLASS.

EVIL VILLAIN: CODE NAME: LIFE

DO YOU KNOW THAT FEELING? THAT FEELING WHERE ALL YOU WANT TO DO IS HIT ALL THE WORLD YOU KNOW WITH A BASEBALL BAT? AND MAYBE IF ITS NOT THERE THEN IT CANT GO ON DESTROYING. BUT YOU'D BE WRONG. WHEN THE WORLD'S NOT THERE, IT TAKES EVERYTHING DOWN WITH IT. FOR A LONG TIME, I THOUGHT I WAS GETTING RID OF MY PROBLEMS. GETTING RID OF THE PAINFUL, LIFE-MURDERING CIRCUMSTANCES THAT I'VE BEEN PUT IN... MOSTLY PUT MYSELF INTO. BUT LIFE KEEPS GOING, PROBLEMS KEEP RISING, AND PEOPLE KEEP BEING, WELL, PEOPLE.
THE WORST THING TO UNDERSTAND, IS TO UNDERSTAND THAT LIFE SUCKS. NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY, LIFE SUCKS. CLINGING TO GOD CHANGES THAT. BUT ITS THE MOMENTS WHEN YOU REALIZE THAT BEING IN PAIN IS THE BEST THING FOR YOU RIGHT NOW. SO I SIT AND EMBRACE... I TRY.