SHOW ME

I DONT KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE THE WAY I FEEL. ITS A MIXTURE OF ANGER, DEPRESSION, AND LONELINESS. IM SO UPSET AT THE SITUATIONS THAT IM IN. THE SITUATIONS PEOPLE HAVE PUT ME IN ARE TEARING ME APART. I FEEL LIKE IM LOSING MY BEST FRIEND. NOT JUST BECAUSE OF THE COMING WEEK BUT BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO BE DONE WITH IT. IM TIRED OF FEELING THIS WAY ALL THE TIME. I KNOW I OVER-ANALYZE ALL THE TIME. BUT DONT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT THE THINGS THEY DO? DONT THEY REALIZE THAT WHAT THEYRE DOING RIGHT NOW IS HURTING ME? ME, THE PERSON THEY CLAIM TO CARE SO MUCH ABOUT.
DONT TELL ME THAT YOU CARE. DONT TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME. DONT TELL ME THAT YOURE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. BECUASE THE TRUTH IS, YOURE PROBABLY NOT. SO INSTEAD, I URGE YOU TO SHOW ME THAT YOU CARE. SHOW ME THAT YOU LOVE ME. AND SHOW ME THAT YOURE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME.
IM NOT DEPENDING ON YOU. YOURE NOT MY CRUCH. GOD IS MY CRUCH. BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN I DONT NEED YOU. I NEED YOU TO BE THERE FOR ME. WHEN IM FREAKING OUT. WHEN IM AT MY LOWEST. AND WHEN ALL I WANNNA DO IS CRY.